Friday, 6 January 2012

A new me?

It was my 46th birthday yesterday.  Add to this the New Year, and the fact that I am now cancer free, I feel under pressure to be a better person or at least, come up with some pretty heavy resolutions.  And although I have spouted on and on about how the experience has changed me, I wonder how much it has, really.  Initially I was convinced that once I was over the cancer, I would be a much more patient, more mindful, much healthier person who would scream less at the children and not touch any junk food.  Sadly this is not the case - I feel (and eat) almost exactly the same.  The only thing that seems to be different is that I am more determined to be happy and am very grateful for each day I spend with the people I love.

So, I suppose this is a bit of a better me.  Or perhaps a more tolerant me.  I have decided to:

1.  Not sweat the small stuff - cancer puts things in perspective.  A lot of things that used to irritate me is now just water off a duck's back.  (Goodness, one of my resolutions should be to stop using cliches.)

2.  Spend time with people who make me a better person - I came across this the other day and it wouldn't surprise me to find out that a lot of people I know may be unhappy because they spend time with the wrong people.  Take a look:

STOP spending time with the wrong people.  Life is too short to be with anyone who sucks the happiness out of you like marrow from a bone.  If someone wants you in their life, they'll make room.  Never fight for a spot or sell yourself to someone who overlooks your worth.  And, it's not the people that stand by your side when you're at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you're at your worst that are your true friends."  Dr C Northrup

3.  Be more mindful.  I will stop worrying about tomorrow and appreciate the beauty of everything around me today, right now.  (For those who know me well, this is a challenge as I am an absolute worrier.)

4.  Get over my crush on the 26-year old Robert Pattinson.  It's taking too much time, he doesn't know I exist and if he did, he would be mortified to know that a 46-year old mother of three thinks he's cute.


  1. Chinot, I am borrowing that quote...I need to make that my New Year'S resolution! Big hugs from Cebu..come vist with the kids and do the whale shark thing. It is a PETA campaign waiting to happen but soooo amazing!
    love, S

  2. Love this!!! Totally agree with you but not the getting over Robert Pattinson one because it MAKES YOU HAPPY! SMILE! Happy New Year, dearest Chinot! Hope to see you in 2012!!! Cheers! Y

  3. All great apart from last one, we're never too old to have a crush on a rather cute younger film star! Makes us feel younger and happier!

  4. Even if you were the 'same old you' it would be an amazing in essences you already had a great platform!!
    Robert pattinson...I have that crush too because of his awesome acting ability in an amazing bunch of bitie films...haha!!

  5. Bully for you Chinot on bravely making those resolutions. Over the years, I have proven to myself that I barely make it through the first month before I backslide or hastily make up reasons (they're now mental templates) for having a firmer resolve.
    Hurrah for those wise words from Dr. C. Northrup.
    Now, who in heaven's name is Robert Patinkum or Patinsun?
    Love you. Hope you had a fab birthday celeb. - Dad

  6. A massive(and belated) Happy Birtdday wish to you Chinot. Love reading your blog, don't stop. Just one thought, instead of cutting out Robert from your thoughts, why not try to get a bit of balance, and devide your thoughts between various age groups. What about Taylor Lautner (Jakob) in his 20's, Chris Pine 30's, Johnny Depp 40's, George Clooney 50's and Richard Geere 60s .... oh, I could add a few more if you need inspirtation.